I am a recovering addict….less than 3 weeks from 1 year clean. The first 10 1/2 months of my sobriety began in jail. I’ve been out for 3 weeks and I’m lost. I find myself staring at a tv for hours at a time simply because I don’t know what else to do. I know the things I need to do: find a job, clean house, etc but beyond doing the bare minimum I’m lost. I enjoy spending time with my boyfriend, but when he leaves for work I don’t know what to do with myself. I need to work on my resume’, but I’m scared of rejection (due to recent incarceration) so….I do nothing. If I do anything productive, it’s so minimal it doesn’t really achieve anything beyond making me feel like I at least sort of made an effort. I need a hobby. I need something I enjoy and actually look forward to doing. I don’t have a car or license at this point (buying pills was more important than paying traffic tickets) so getting out of the house is limited to my boyfriend’s availability to drive me-which brings about all sorts of other guilt for continuing to be a burden on him, but that’s beside the point I’m trying to make now.
I need something I can do at home that’s fun, engaging, will keep me from continuing to fry my brain on television .
I apologize for the rambling, but I appreciate any thoughts & ideas. Thanks in advance. 🙂
